A New Mission
I went to bed last night feeling pretty numb. I had just finished a much-needed discussion and my mind was sorta racing but my body just whispered go to sleep. I don't know if the talk was productive or not, but I have to believe that it will produce something positive.
After a wild dream about having quads and not being at all prepared, not knowing what to do with them or how to even change their diapers, I woke to the spring air and the sun shining in my face.
A new day. A new start. A day to make some good changes.
I hopped on my email and had a bunch of kind words from friends regarding the update on MD that I sent out yesterday. This put me back into my slump quickly. I am missed. I miss. I would like to go back home. I would like to be back in my life in OP. I would like things to be different.
Feeling those things are fine, but I am realizing (as I write) that what I am experiencing is not just going on with me, but in the bigger picture I think there are some spiritual battles happening. Every time I go a step ahead, I fall two back.
For someone who feels completely confident about where she is at this moment, there is something preventing the life and fruit of that God-given confidence. The enemy.
Knowing that there is always more than meets the eye, I now feel like I'm a Warrior on a mission, and it's my duty and my goal to do the mission well.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Amen.
After a wild dream about having quads and not being at all prepared, not knowing what to do with them or how to even change their diapers, I woke to the spring air and the sun shining in my face.
A new day. A new start. A day to make some good changes.
I hopped on my email and had a bunch of kind words from friends regarding the update on MD that I sent out yesterday. This put me back into my slump quickly. I am missed. I miss. I would like to go back home. I would like to be back in my life in OP. I would like things to be different.
Feeling those things are fine, but I am realizing (as I write) that what I am experiencing is not just going on with me, but in the bigger picture I think there are some spiritual battles happening. Every time I go a step ahead, I fall two back.
For someone who feels completely confident about where she is at this moment, there is something preventing the life and fruit of that God-given confidence. The enemy.
Knowing that there is always more than meets the eye, I now feel like I'm a Warrior on a mission, and it's my duty and my goal to do the mission well.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Amen.
posted by Kelly | 9:22 AM
1 Comments:
What is the mission? The word mission includes action. How do you feel that you have been actively living out the mission? I'm always comfoted by the "little jar of oil" story in the bible, where the lady is at the end of her rope and had nothing to give but a little pot of oil. However her actions (giving) and step of faith blessed her beyond belief. It's great to sit still and know that He is God; to have faith, but I truly believe it's when we act in some way that we are closer to the heart of God. I feel it is then that we truly learn.
I do hope you take up your battle gear in the midst of this dark time and actively pursue Him.
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