Back on the Blog

I am excited to write tonight. It won't be much, but at least it gets me back into the routine.

Life has been busy lately and the blog falls to the wayside. I wish that I had the dedication to do it daily or weekly, though, because I feel so much better after I write.

I re-read a bunch of previous posts tonight and remembered so much. Writing does that for me...and others I presume. It takes me back to where I was at that point and reminds me of what has changed, how far I/others have come, how far yet we have to go and it just plain helps me to think clearer.

Now I wish I'd written more because I feel like time is dwindling away before my very eyes and there is so much I want to remember.

I am technically "due" in one month from today. One more month. One month to wait for the body to do its work, one month for baby to arrive. One month to do last minute things around here, one month to spend my free time as MY free time. One month to savor the relationship with my husband before our roles change, one month to enjoy being just Kelly.

So much excitement is wrapped up in this one month! There are things that I welcome and yet I feel a tinge of selfishness when I think that I will never be alone again, never not be a Mommy, rarely have true "free time" and how much responsibility will soon be entrusted to my honey and I.

Lots of emotions going on lately. Good stuff, but stuff that I didn't really expect or think of before.

At times I think this time has flown by and continues to...and other times I feel like I need more time to mentally prepare for what's about to happen! I suppose that's pretty normal.

Whether this baby comes in two weeks, four weeks or six weeks, I know when it comes it will be his or her time...and it'll be perfect timing. That's just how God works.